Friday, May 11, 2012

friday 5

It's Friday, a good day for a five minute purge.

I've been in the weirdest mood lately.  Feeling kind of antsy, a couple things have gone down recently  that bother me and I'm kind of one of those types of people that need to get away when I'm irritated or thrown off.  It's way better for me to leave and chill myself out so I don't say or do anything that I can't take back.  I'm very controlled like that.

I think it takes quite a bit for me to flip out and actually lose my temper.   I can't think of the last time that I've lost it.  Of course I get irritated or annoyed, but I'm pretty good at keeping myself calm.  I don't know, maybe I need to just get out and feel the sun on my face.  So that's what I'll do.  In a minute.

Maybe it's just because I've been busier than usual.  I like my controlled little life, where things typically fall neatly into place.  This week was kind of back-to-back stuff, which left little room for down time.  I so need down time.  My brain gets going too fast and suddenly it's like somebody in there is screaming, "chaos! get me out of here!"

I've had some planned and unplanned doctor appointments this week.  Some after school events to attend, a conference, a luncheon, some totally necessary shopping, early dismissals at school, birthday stuff, the gym, dinners... thankfully nothing has kept me from the daily night walks that tend to just make me say ahhh...

Something about getting out there in the dark. Cool air and quiet starry nights.  The big fat super moon was out, filling the night with light, making me think impossible things and wonder and kind of just soak it all up.

Impossible things can be possible.

(time's up: 2:05pm)


  1. I know what you mean about losing your temper. The rare times I do lose my temper, nothing good comes of it, and I always regret my behavior. That's why I have the 24 hour rule, which states that I give myself permission to feel the way I am feeling, I just resolve to not act on those feelings for at least 24 hours. 9 times out of 10, 24 hours later, I'm not pissed anymore!