reasons why

Where am I today? 
I wish that I knew
Cause looking around 
there’s no sign of you
I don’t remember one jump or one leap

Just quiet steps away from your lead

I’m holding my heart out 
but clutching it too
Feeling this short of a love that we once knew

I’m calling this home 
when it’s not even close
Playing the role with nerves left exposed
We get distracted by dreams of our own
But nobody’s happy while feeling alone 

And knowing how hard it hurts when we fall
We lean another ladder against the wrong wall

And climb high to the highest rung, to shake fists at the sky
While others have excuses, 
I have my reasons why

With so much deception it’s hard not to wander away

It’s hard not to wander away