lyrics SADMAD

I love music.  I listen to music every single day. Every day. I'm one of those people who listens to and thinks about and feels the lyrics, too. It's very rarely mindless listening, for me. If I am in a sad mood, I really have to put on a happy freaking playlist or I'll just like, fold into myself, just getting sadder and sadder. If I'm driving along in a regular mood and a certain tune comes on before I have a chance to think about it, I can immediately get emotional, happy, sad, angry, nostalgic... music is a very powerful thing for me.

I think every now and then I'll post the lyrics (and maybe a video) of a song that make me feel something. This song just came up in a playlist of mine (Oh hey, I'm on Spotify: jesseeb, if you want to check out any of my playlists), and it's one that makes me sadmad. That is an emotion, GUYS.  What song makes you sadmad whenever you hear it?

Separate Ways

-Teddy Thompson

Come rolling into town
Unaware of the power that you have over me
And what am I to do with, 'Hello, how are you'?
Nothing's ever said that should be

And I don't care about you
If you don't care about me
We can go our separate ways
If you want to

The ties of love are strong
But they can be undone
And we'll go our separate ways
If you want to

I'm turning into me, not you
I can change my mind not my blood
And not all who love are blind
Some of us are just too kind
We forgive too much and never speak our minds

And I don't care about you
If you don't care about me
We can go our separate ways
If you want to

The ties of love are strong
But they can be undone
And we'll go our separate ways
If you want to

I'm giving up on you
And I'll turn my heart to something new
And we'll go our separate ways
If you want to

I stood out in the rain, holding my breath
Waiting for you, you never came
You broke my heart, you broke my heart
I know who's to blame, you're to blame

And I don't care about you
If you don't care about me
We can go our separate ways
If you want to

The ties of love are strong
But they can be undone
And we'll go our separate ways
If you want to

te amo

Te Amo

...Tell me where you come from darling
Tell me where you run to honey
I am only here to listen
And I am only here to fear

Tell me everything about you
Tell me about all the hearts you steal
Fire is burning round me, are you gonna burn with me too
Cause I don't really want this life
All I really want is you

Are you gonna take me up there
Are you gonna help me see
Are you gonna lift this madness 
or are you going to bury me

So shall I run
Or shall I fall, shall I fall for you
I'll burn it down, I'll sell it all 
sell it all for you

...Living my life in shadows
I don't know what this all means 
But I am a seeker 
and I'm seeking you to rescue me
                                      --trevor hall

tied to me

And all of these days they pass like water
Should I even tighten the grip of my hand
I get the sense that we're all chasing after
The same simple thing that I don't understand

To carry you on

And you wear a color that I don't remember
Your hair so much shorter than it used to be
Years cannot change all the secrets we gathered
Years cannot change what you still mean to me

To carry you on
Tied to me

I'd like to linger with you till the morning
And pretend the winter has given to spring
Conjure up guilty reminders together
And fade into this like we both used to be
-william fitzsimmons

friday five

It's Friday!  I'm not sure if I should be excited or not.

It's a little after 1:00 and I've been working on some stuff.  Writing.  Going a little bit out of my comfort zone, and working on a different style.  I don't hate it.  I wish I could put music to it actually.

I'm a little out of sorts today.  I need to figure out a way to get myself cheerier, need to figure out a way to not let things get to me.  It's hard sometimes.  

This song called "Love, Love, Love," was just playing, by Of Monsters and Men and I love these lyrics.  Sometimes I am so distracted listening to the words of a good song, I forget what I was even doing.  This part is really visual, it's like a painting.  Does that sound weird?  

     these fingertips

     will never run through your skin

     and those bright blue eyes

     can only meet mine

     across a crowded room 

     filled with people 

     less important than you

I wish I could paint.  I want to paint a picture of those words.

I guess I don't have much going on this weekend, which makes me happy.  I quite enjoy a rare weekend with nothing on the calendar.  It feels good.  I do have a few little excursions to plan this weekend - airplane tickets to get booked.  In mid-October, I'm hopefully going to California for a few days with my sister, and then heading to South Carolina for a wedding towards the end of that month.  Hoping to make it out to Denver for another wedding around the New Year, which should be great.  Then, who knows where I'll go?  Any suggestions?  For my next big solo trip, I'm thinking Seattle.   

Time's up!  Happy weekend guys!

monday listicle 10 songs

So the Monday Listicle topic this week is 10 songs.  Well.  I was kind of hemming and hawing, not sure of how to approach the ten songs thing because you know, I listen to music a ton, like every day.  And I really like all kinds of music.  So what 10 songs?  What kind of songs?  Randoms?  Faves?  Cheesy?  80's?

Then I was thinking about how everyone in my life makes fun of the weird tunes that I like, until they are forced to listen to them a few times. Then they decide that the tunes are in fact, rather cool.  Have to admit that it gets me smirking when I see my 7 year-old singing along to an obscure tune called, "Love your Shoes," by Furniture.

Either way, it's still hard to pick, because a large majority of the tunes that I find myself listening to would probably be considered weird by your average top 40 listeners.  So here's a little smattering.  Sorry if any of them have ads or aren't official videos.


10 WEIRD TUNES THAT I LIKE

1. Love Your Shoes by Furniture



2. Dirty Paws by Of Monsters and Men



3. I Don't Believe You by The Magnetic Fields



4. Lonely, Lonely by Feist



5. Slow Show by The National
 


6. Swim Until You Can't See Land by Frightened Rabbit



7. Everything in its Right Place by Radiohead



8. Video Games by Lana Del Rey



9. Lippy Kids by Elbow



10. Atmosphere by Joy Division



linking up

drop in the ocean

                                                                       
  I don't want to waste the weekend  If you don't love me,pretend   a few more hours  Then its time to go
  And as my train moves down the east coast  I wonder how you keep warm  It's too late to cry  Too broken to move on

  And still, I can't let you be

  Most nights I hardly sleep

  Don't take what you don't need from me

  Misplaced trust in old friends  Never counting regrets  By the grace of God,   I do not rest at all                                                            A Drop in the Ocean
                                                                       -Ron Pope                                                                 

satellite

                                                              Santa Fe, NM

Shining like a work of art
Hanging on a wall of stars
Are you what I think you are?

You're my satellite

You're riding with me tonight
Passenger side, lighting the sky
Always the first star that I find

Elevator to the moon
Whistling our favorite tune
Trying to get a closer view

Maybe you will always be
Just a little out of reach

-guster

lie to me

One of my escape, what else can I say

I'll play dead and you can stay

And I'll help you kill your time

If you help me kill my night

And maybe one day get it right

Go ahead and lie to me

I'll believe in anything you say tonight

Go ahead and lie to me

Write "I love you," while I sleep

And hide it for another day to find

I will not confuse this with something true

Only that what gets us through

And I wonder down the line

When both of us are fine

Yeah, my  mind wanders there sometimes

I don't mind playing the fool, no

I don't mind playing the fool

i almost forgot about this song. i like it.

here with me
                   dido


i didn't hear you leave 
i wonder how am i still here
i don't want to move a thing 
it might change my memory

oh i am what i am 
i'll do what i want 
but i can't hide

i won't go 
i won't sleep
i can't breathe 
until you're resting here with me
i won't leave 
i can't hide
i cannot be 
until you're resting here with me

i don't want to call my friends 
they might wake me from this dream
and i can't leave this bed
risk forgetting all that's been

oh i am what i am
i'll do what i want
but i can't hide
and i won't go
i won't sleep
i can't breathe
until you're resting here with me
and i won't leave 
i can't hide

i cannot be 
until you're resting here with me

reasons why

Where am I today? 
I wish that I knew
Cause looking around 
there’s no sign of you
I don’t remember one jump or one leap

Just quiet steps away from your lead

I’m holding my heart out 
but clutching it too
Feeling this short of a love that we once knew

I’m calling this home 
when it’s not even close
Playing the role with nerves left exposed
We get distracted by dreams of our own
But nobody’s happy while feeling alone 

And knowing how hard it hurts when we fall
We lean another ladder against the wrong wall

And climb high to the highest rung, to shake fists at the sky
While others have excuses, 
I have my reasons why

With so much deception it’s hard not to wander away

It’s hard not to wander away

walk across the diamonds

                                                            Mission Street, SF

Lime Tree

Spark a match and watch the candle burn
the wick runs out and love takes its turn
on fallen angels and broken sounds
we will last past the final round
it took a while for you to find me
because i was hiding in the lime tree
above the city in the rain cloud
i poked a hole and watched it drain out
parallel to the city streets
our broken crowns beneath our feet
but as we walk across the diamonds
we know that love is always shining
so save me love save me all the time
i'll wash you down with a simple sip of wine
and toast my glass to all my loved ones
to let them know that the stars well they still shine

                                                       -Trevor Hall