I like to consider myself a tough girl. I mean, I've been through enough stuff to feel like like I can take a lot. But I do have plenty of fears, things that scare me. About all sorts of things. I might not show it outwardly, because I'm not shaking in my boots in front of anyone. I know the irrational fears may be a snitch far-fetched, but I can't help it.
I have a bunch of unusual fears and one is passing tractor trailers in the rain. I've had this fear ever since I could drive on the highway. I inwardly panic. It’s not pretty. But those freaking huge trucks splash a crap load of stuff on your windshield so you are momentarily blinded and could potentially go off the road and die a fiery death! I think that’s a pretty rational fear! Also, I am positive that one of my kids is going to fall out of the car while I am driving on the highway. I have had many a mental freak out over the thought, and have had to actually pull over to just take a minute to chill out. Cod help me if someone opens a window in the backseat, because the sound of the window opening, like just the noise of the rushing air, would make me almost throw up – to me it sounds like the car door opening. Is that weird?
I am irrationally afraid of swimming in the deep end in the dark (did you ever read that short story by Stephen King about the oil slick??!! It definitely took away my ability to ever skinny dip in the dark, (thanks a lot SK). I'm also irrationally afraid of shark attacks. I am positive I got attacked by a shark in Mexico when I was 16. I didn’t have the actual wounds to prove it, but I KNOW it happened. So I get super nervous swimming in the ocean, and feel like I am constantly scanning the horizon for misc fins. Those sneaky sharks can practically come right up to the beach!! And I know they want to take a bite of my meaty leg.
I am rationally afraid of the book American Psycho by Brett Easton Ellis and the picture of the guy on the cover. I had to hide that book from myself because it scared me so much. Freaking insane, sick book. Not in a good way either. I beg you not to attempt to read it. I realize mentioning it in such a manner might just make you curious, which is pretty much why I bought it and read it in the first place, but it was a huge mistake. I am not even kidding guys. I remember when I bought it, I had to request it, and they brought it out from the back room covered in brown paper. Like, it was so bad. I definitely threw it away when I was done. I felt like, sick having read it.
Some odd food fears: biting into a rotten tomato, biting into an apple and seeing a worm, or even worse - 1/2 of a worm. Oh em gee. And I totally can't stand the thought of accidentally eating raw chicken, ew. I feel like gagging right now.
I am also afraid of pulling one of my kids limbs out of their socket. Which actually happened once, to my poor little Meg. She was about 3 and we were at Gymnastics, and she was doing that thing where she would walk up my legs while I held her hands and she'd flip over. I was totally distracted talking to someone while she was doing it, but all of a sudden, she let out a huge, pain-scream. And Megan has always been a super mild kid - not dramatic at all. She literally full on screamed, the entire way to the hospital, not a cry, but a scream. And her arm from the elbow down was just hanging there. Ugh, it was awful. I was so grateful they took her right in, and as soon as the doctor pulled it back into place (gross sounding but took about 1/10th of a second), she looked at me and smiled and said, "That feels so much better!" In her little baby voice with tears all over her face. It totally traumatized me.
My fears aren't necessarily run of the mill - scared of spider-type fears. Because I was a single mom for a long time, I had to deal with spiders and bad guys and the dark and all of that scary stuff on my own at a young age - I didn't have a guy there to smack the spider for me. But I did sleep with a hammer under my pillow. Not sure how I would actually defend myself with a hammer -- I guess I figured I could hammer the bad guy into submission?
My BIL John, who isn't really a scaredy cat at all, is terrified of snakes. He screams like a girl if he even thinks he saw one. It's really funny. I always picture him like one of those 50's housewives screaming on the chair in the kitchen because a little mouse ran through. Incidentally, those housewives always wore cute aprons. And had perfect hair and makeup.
I never wear an apron. And my hair and makeup is pretty average. Maybe I should wear an apron. Hmph.